Have you ever had a period in your life where burned eggs can leave you a heap of crying mess on the kitchen floor? Or realizing you left the laundry on the line in the rain has you gasping for breath?
It's my opinion that keeping these types of thing hidden away and being ashamed of them can do far more harm than good. It's when I try to ignore the issues that it builds up and makes me far worse.
I know most of my anxiety, fear and panic comes from lymes and the effect it's had on my body. But boy does it make me feel crazy, unspiritual and out of control.
Nothing like the prospect of an untraceable disease popping up at any time to reek havoc on your life. I go through phases. Yes everything will be fine. The oils, vitamin c, supplements, and prayer will take care of it. Especially since we caught it early.
Then... Something snaps and the fear takes over. I'll never be healthy again. I'll most likely pass this on to my next baby and ruin their life. Is this ____ because of life or because of the lymes. Probably the lymes... And on... And on
I've found that these oils help me keep calm when fear and doubt start to overwhelm me. If I catch it early then it's much more manageable.
I've also use psalm 91 heavily. It's always been my favorite chapter and now the first verse is a life line. I'll say it over and over when things get bad. I have this hanging in the living room. At times I probably sound like a crazy monk chanting lol:)
Morning is one of the hardest times. As soon as my eyes open rob is leaving, the girls are asking for things and I'm wondering how this day will go.
So to help with one of those issues I made a massive batch of overnight gingerbread steel cut oats (thanks Lesli and kellie:) in the crockpot. They are now in baggies in the freezer. Easy for me to pull out the night before and just heat up.
2 Timothy 1:7
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
Still looking for my sound mind... I seemed to have lost it along the way ;)
Love these pictures! They look like something out of a picture book :-) Thanks for sharing peeks of God's three little bright spots in your sometimes gloomy days.
ReplyDeleteThe girls will love these pictures when they look back at these and see how much fun they had growing up. What a good mama!
ReplyDeleteMelissa, I'm right there with you. Our brain is so powerful that when our body is compromised it can become confused. I don't think this should be anything to be ashamed of. No one seems to be ashamed of being claustrophobic which is based on an imagined fear. Panic attacks are triggered by real danger, not imagined. Deep breathing and Psalm 23's "yea though I walk through the valley" have kept me in my right mind many times. I don't know how people cope without Jesus. I think talking about it helps us to see it for what it is. Not a defect but a place where healing needs to take place and for that we ultimately need the Great Physician. I think you are doing a great job with the girls and your home and this is just a season in your life that looks different than the others. I pray for you daily for continued healing from the Lymes.
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